Just Another Bang-Your-Head-On-The-Wall Moment

Yes. It's that time of year again. School is beginning. Time for kids of all ages to subject themselves to 9 months of brain pain and number crunching. For me, it's my last year. ^#$%((@....not sure what to think of it. I tried to get into ASL classes at the college, but they are filled for the whole year. And summer? Forget it. So, my plans for foreign language, screwed! Which means that this school year is NOT off too a good start.

This morning I went into school for a minute to drop something off and saw where my desk was.....It could be worse, stuck between a quiet weirdo, and a cool, quiet person. Could be worse I guess.

You know whats irritating? When you buy an album, and then like 3 months later, the band releases a deluxe edition of the same album with new songs only on the deluxe edition. It's like they are just trying to mess with me!! Now, I want those two songs SOOO bad, but I'll feel stupid if I buy the deluxe edition JUST for those two songs!! Curse you label company.*shakes fist*

Sometimes....

Sometimes,

You just want to shoot yourself...........in the foot...

You want to scream at the world.....

You want it all to go away...

You want everyone just to shut up.....

You just can't take it anymore....

You just wonder if it's all worth it....

You just want it all to end...

You just wonder if there is someone out there....

Sometimes you just.....need.....

Dude, You're Such A Wangsta!

Yes! Weeks of microwave dinners are over! My mother, along with my two urchin siblings, is now home from a 4 week stay in Iowa. Just in time too. One more bowl of Ramen Noodles might have been the death of me.

In other news, it was "crazy hat" day at an event I help at and my only hat was a flat-billed cap. So I proudly tilted it back and to the side, and proceeded to walk with a swag towards Dustin. I believe the first words out of his mouth were, "Dude, your such a wangsta!" Now to anyone who does NOT know what that term means, it means, "Wanna-be-gansta". Wham-O! Wangsta!

don't ask why i took this photo in the bathroom....cuz i still don't know

Turns out, this drink that Alex is so eagerly chugging, costs less than 4 dollars! We pretty much considered that a steal.

What Else Is There?

blue is a color, but so is blood, blood is not just a color but a life source, do you find answers in doctors, or in the internet...even by my reckoning most people are wowed...but, i really just don't know what is going on, life is going by, and i'm sharing it with no one.... im treading water, in a pool where i can touch bottom....i'm sinking, but only while in outer space, then one can really reach his potential, to be shut up or shut down, don't let them put you down, it will come back around, just not around the corner, the shadowed corner that your hiding in, relax tho, the shadow proves there's sunshine, the sun's light exposes it all, but if you expose film it's ruined, you left my life in ruins, but, i am now ruined, with your help, we can make it......

What Am I? A Hobo Magnet?

....*creeper status*.....So yea, as of recently, I have taken to going on like 2 hour bikes rides in a place I call Hobo Land. It's an abandoned area behind a beach. There are trailers EVERYWHERE. Some inhabited, some not so much. Haha. Anyway, I was on my way out, when a random guy pulls up next to me in an old, beat up car, and proceeds to share with me some tips on the following:what skulls to find, what kind of bones are worth the most, how to clean them, and how much copper was worth when he was a kid. It was actually a nice thing. A lot of people do that and make a pretty penny too! But, anyhows,. I thanked him and continued on my way........haha...nice hobo...

Am I scared of old people? No. Am I scared of doing ANYTHING in front of people.....Yes. Pretty much. But, that being said, Sophie and I are planning on going to a, Seniors Center, or whatever you want to call it, and reading to some of them. No, I am nervous because I am  horrid, out-loud, reader. Granted, it prolly doesn't even matter because old people don't really care. Just as long as you are there and talk to them. All with a smile....

toodles

Hobo Land

Hobos scare me. They just do. I can't help it. So, when I was confronted by a hobo during my bike ride thru hobo land, I didn't stop pedaling. Not to mention the one that just stared at me from within it's hobo trailer.

Tell me if you think anything might be missing in this photo.....

 

Hmmm...how about a FLOOD?!? Haha. Stuff like this just makes me laugh.

One thing I did find while biking around was a very nice, semi-secluded spot right next to the lake. Very beautiful. Not to mention being in the sun does tend to help out ones tan.

Dustin now has a cell phone....*sigh*...yet another one of my friends has left me behind and is now one step closer to somewhere I'm not.

toodles.....

"We touch I feel a rush
We clutch it isn't much
But it's enough to make me wonder whats in store for us
It's lust, it's torturous 
You must be a sorceress 'cause you just
Did the impossible
Gained my trust don't play games it'll be dangerous"

 

I'm not sure how correct this is......but still.....

I Passed a Test I Have Already Taken

I am officially a soccer ref now. I can now get payed to ref soccer games. YAY!!

I have a badge now. It's official now. I did ref last year for the Del Norte Youth Soccer League, but my license or whatever you call it had expired, so I had to take a course and a test which I passed just barely. YAY!!

Oh, and when it comes to soccer this year, my father and I are coaching a U8 team. It's actually quite entertaining to coach. So much enthusiastic energy all over the field. Haha. They are just so funny to watch.

A weird thing happened to me at our church potluck today. I had several girls tell me I smelled good! And what's even weirder? I get that quite often actually. I get told mostly these two things, that I have pretty eyes and I smell good! All I can say is, for the first, "I was born with it", and for the second, well, "You can thank Old Spice Body wash for that"! lol

Thinking Over The Unthinkable

Some people don't deserve life. They make a conscious decision and, in my opinion humble opinion, forfeit their right to life. End of discussion.

Wow. Life is moving very fast right now.Summer has blown by. Well, I for starters, am now a stop at the DMV away from taking my Learners Permit test. Very excited about that.

I will be a senior this year. Scary and exciting at the same time.

I went to the Del Norte County Fair this year. First week of August I believe. Dinky is too much credit. Haha. It is sooooo small. I went and hung out all day till closing time with these hooligans here in the pic below.

These hooligans, starting from the bottom are Tara, Dustin, Sophie, and Lauren(is the one under Sophie lol).
 Besides the actual fair, I had an enjoyable time with my friends.


Oh, fyi, more pics will be posted from now on. I take a lot. Might as well use them for something.

Repeat

i was thinking
over thinking
cause there's just too many scenarios
to analayze
look in my eyes
cause you're my dream please come true

i was thinking
over thinking
about exactly how i'm not exactly him
i'll break my heart in two
more times than you could ever do
cause you're my dream please come true

cause i think way too much
on a one track mind
and you're so out of touch
cause i'm so far behind

i can't deny this anymore, the facts ignored all done before
and if there's one in this world,
you let me know you're not that girl

i was sinking
lower, sinking
cause i lost the things i held on to
they let me think a thought
a thought that i would know was not
of seeing my dream come true

i was thinking
over thinking
about how far i had let this go
one more guy/girl chiché
i know now you're just in the way
of me and my dream come true

cause i think way too much
on a one track mind
and you're so out of touch
cause i'm so far behind
i'm trying to make sense
out of all of this
while your fading scent
just slips through my grip

i can't deny this anymore, the facts ignored all done before
and if there's one in this world,
you let me know you're not that girl

don't touch the positive with the negative end
don't touch the positive with the negative end
cause after all of the sparks you're still alone in the dark
cause after all of the sparks you're left alone in the dark

and while i'm able, i think i'll label
experience with you as a mistake
and while i'm at it, i'll say i've had it
experience with you is a mistake

cause i think way too much
on a one track mind
and you're so out of touch
cause i'm so far behind
i'm trying to make sense
out of all of this
while your fading scent
just slips through my grip

i was thinking
over thinking
cause there's just too many scenarios
to think about
to figure out
if you're my dream please come true